*Independent Thought Alarm*

[ 5.31.2002 ]

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I had no idea it woud be like this. Paduch always sucked in the summer but at least we were all there together...or at least a few of us from high school. I could always count on seeing Rachel and Valarie and whoever else spend at least a few weeks in good old Lone Oak. Things have been turned on their side...I'm as alone right now as I've ever been in my life. It's so strange. Two girls from my dorm are here, but I always feel like they're busy and I'm bothering them. One of my roommates is awesome, but she has a boyfriend and you know how that goes. I've worked myself into a routine of sleep and work. I go to work for a few hours, come home and fall asleep reading various books, wake up with words and ink on my face, get ready and go out usually for coffee. I've spent more time at Common Grounds than is normal. My God I love that place, but it gets old after a while. I called Rachel and Jackie last night for a quick update on their lives and to see how their summers are going. It's so weird to think that it's summer and I'm not in Paducah with them. I'm so used to saying "What do you want to do tonight? This town is so boring!" but now I don't even have anyone to bitch with. It's really weird in a depressing sort of way. It makes me feel like a psychologist whenver I'm around people...I notice what they're not saying just as much as what they are saying. At first when I found myself alone and bored, I would freak out and make some calls until I had plans. Now, I've gotten quite fond of being alone. I never thought I'd say that, and for those of you that I grew up with, you may pick your jaws from the floor now. I've gotten so used to being by myself that I prefer it. Most people just seem so fake and end up annoying the hell out of me. I usually can't wait to get away from them and retreat back into my own little world of music and books. Lexington doesn't suck that bad...there's stuff to do here. What sucks is having nobody to do anything with. Well, I guess this is growing up.
Oh yeah, while I'm throwing bags off the bitch truck, my mom is in COLORADO right now. What the HELL??? It's been over a week since I've heard from her, which sucks because I've grown so fond of talking to her on the phone. She did call my sister so I know that she's out there (with my aunt Esther) having a blast, no doubt. She'll be back on Sunday, but I wish she'd at least call me. Oh well.
One of my roommates has moved out already and two more are leaving July 1st. After that, Jenn and I are gonna throw some parties hopefully and have some fun. I want everyone to come back to Lex for crying out loud! I hate to say it, but I can't wait till classes start back up and I have something to do! Until then, everyone can be expecting letters and postcards because I miss you all very much. Rach, good luck with your job. I hope Val is out there sharing God's love with tons of people...I admire you so much! Erin, you'd better plan on coming to see me soon!
To my Donovan girls, get your asses back here! I miss you all so much!
My email is daisypunk@hotmail.com and the first person to send me a email with he subject line "hit me" will get a free agst-ridden punch in the face from yours truly. Have a nice day...or at least a better one than I experience in my meaningless miserable existance.
mandypants [1:53 AM]